Ermmm treated him to Haagen daaz's ice-cream fondue 'coz he felt left out that i wen ahead to try it without him the other day...let's just say he jeles lah...ahahaha...after dat we nimbled on finger food from macdonald in front of shaw towers and then proceeded to GV PS to catch 'The Punisher'..
The movie is pretty ok and there's plenty of violent scenes dat as usual i will keep glancing away...i just have a weak heart and i cant stand seeing people get slaughtered...im such a chicken...
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its way after midnite now...just sms brother and he's outside watchin soccer, possibly the euro games ...bah! man!@!!....and i'll bet he is at home catchin it over tv...ish....man will be man huh....and it reminded me last time wen i was still 'budak mentah' and i so wanted to have a male *ehem* pen pal so i checked this newsletter and all the guys there described themselves as avid soccer fans but so far only 1 guy described himself differently ...i tink he mentioned he liked computer games, reading and such...so i wrote him a letter and he responded....blah blah blah...cut the story short we met up one day to catch some alien movie and hah...he turned out to be a nerd...ah well...u cant have everything right....hahaha...
sis isnt home yet and if my parents are ard, i'll bet she will never see the night again...sumtimes i wish she can instill sum discipline in herself...i realise how lucky she is...she seems to have everythin she ever wanted or asked for (pssst, she asked my dad for a laptop and she got one with a dvd writer installed..*sigh*)...mum allowed her to go out with her friends during secondary school and during my time im only allowed to go out only with a certain group of friends after o level and dat too i have a curfew i strictly have to follow...and wen she was in jc, she practically come home late all the time and me!, i come home a bit late and i got terrible scolding from my mum....life is just unfair huh...and i just dun understand why there is a different treatment betw me and her....perhaps she being the youngest and the baby in the family dat makes her get away with everything...and can u believe even at this age, i still get scolded if i come home slightly after 9 pm....*sigh*
this is one of the reason why i wanna join the airline so bad....coz i just want to be away from everyone at home...i admit i felt so at ease and at peace whenever im outstation and i can just simply be me.... i can just worry abt myself, abt my tummy and ME! ..and wats best is im earning my own $ and i can choose how i want to save or spend it anyway i wan....and i esp hate it wen pple raised their eyebrows wen they see the things i buy...hey commonlah, its my $ isnt it and i can choose how i want it spent...yes, luxury shopping is a very gd way to throw ur $ down the brain but they sumhow do provide me with some form of short-term contentment and consolation
am i trying so hard searching for happiness or shd i simply just give up, sit still and wait for happiness to come to me????
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ina sighed at 12:34 AM
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